January???

I feel quite awkward at the moment posting after many many many many months. So for those who still occassionally glance over this blog to see if it is in existence, well I guess it is again. I can not promise whether I will write again, and if I do, how often. However, one thing that I can promise is to spill the juice on the last many many months that I have not been writing. Firstly, it seems as if I left off discussing my relationship with Steveo, whom I call Steve now because we've been dating for 7 and a half months. Yes it has been sometime now...and how can I really describe our relationship at this present moment? Well, I can say that Steve is an amazing man, however, a man that requires some effort in pushing. I feel as at times I'm his cheerleader. Can I give a prediction of the future between us? No. I'm still learning about myself. I do not know what will ultimately please me in the future, but my pleasures for now are hedonistic. Tomorrow my winter semester begins, yikes! I dont know how well I'll do with Statistics but I'm really crossing my fingers...that I do not fail and try very hard. I've also enrolled in yoga classes to help me relax mentally. I'd love to write and write but I must save so much more for the blogs to come. Welcome welcome, and thank me for having me back.

Glumy June

Well, well! what a month?! I just finished writing my final examination, yeahhhhhhhhh to that! but that doesn't necessarily mean I'm done. nope. I have a hybrid course in which my attendance is important bi-weekly. So guess what folks, I am officially moving to the T-dot again! Yes my lovely city has been waiting for me, anticipating my arrival for soooooo long, however the waiting is no longer needed. I shall be there first thing tomorrow...after my morning lecture ofcourse! So I guess its been a month and a half since I first wrote about my relationship with Steve, yes it is still on, going quite strong. Uh, the chemistry is quite crazy, unlike anything that I've previously ever experienced. He is one damn hot boy that is mine!

These Days

Well,

What a month, summer school is absolutly hectic! I'm in and out and yeah other than that and my continous drug intake, all is fine, but here is what's new: So I told Tracker I wouldnt be going to the cottage afterall and told him to replace me, but then he came out with this whole thing about me being special and he liking me so much, and thats why I'm his girlfriend, Hmm. Well, unfortunatly, I was not aware that we were still going out, but I guess we are and since he's so far, I am not bothered with it, because I have a life here, where I am. So I'm seeing Steve, how did this happen? well lets see here...he's good looking, tall, muscular, hmm, rich, and I can stand his personality, and the way that kid kisses me, makes me go RAWR! hmm, deja vu. Mass has gone completely mad. He thinks that we should be together yet the poor kid doesn't know...I'm seeing his best friend. Uh oh. How will he feel? Doesn't matter.

My Superstar

The shades may hide those pretty eyes
The flash may capture the cutest grin
Lucky me of knowing what’s inside
You’re #1 on my billboard till the end

There is no question on who you are
Yes you are my superstar

There is no question that you may be far
But, darling, you are my superstar

Autograph my body with your existence
In celebrity gossip sites, you’re my preference
Don’t doubt for a second who is your favorite fan
Boy, you are my superstar till the end

You see me, I see W

I’ve been hiding undercover
I’m infatuated with my new lover

Secrets are hidden underneath the sheets
I go crazy every time our eyes meet

He’s half me and I have you
We’re a lie and it’s the truth

The sun may tell the tale of us
But the moon sets the way for lust

Love isn't holy and pure as you think

it's the guilty feeling that makes the heart sink

Lyrical

A day leads to week, that leads to a month,
That leads to a year, that leads to you dear

Oh but that’s part of the past, part of the past
Even time couldn’t make us last


This is me, in this moment, in time
In time, in this moment, you wanna be mine

Oh no was that us?
Oh no was that lust?

Oh no was that us?
Oh no it was lust...

See, I know that, I know
But since I cant get much out of you, I dont think of it as much

See, you fucked that, you fuck
Now who’s in my arms, Oh isn’t that just your luck

Oh it’s so wrong, yeah so wrong
So wrong that it’s beginning to feel right

Oh it’s so dark, yeah so dark
So dark that I only see shades of light

May Day

May, what a beautiful month! Well the first day atleast! I took full advantage of this wonderful monday. Woke up early, did a lot of working out, read for a bit, even took a nap! I headed out for the evening. Steveo was waiting for me. I arrived at his place on my bike. Walked in to be more surprised. Booze & Chronic. Sweet! Time to get chrunk! And boy did I ever....unfortunately my bike is still in his garage...He had to drop me home...lol...