Strive 50 percent

It wasn't my intention for it to go any further than it has. I've been thinking about it, about him and it's been driving me crazy. See, initially, we started out as friends, well we still are friends but obviously to a complete different level. The only reasons we even have the definition of "friends" to describe us is because I will not allow it to go any further. Why should I? I don't because I don't know if it's worth getting close to someone. Let's say everything is great and we'll like each other a whole lot. But where does the ultimate outcome of the relationship conclude? Like, at such a stage in our lives, we must place a whole amount of effort to keep a relationship working. If the effort is placed from both parties, then of course it can work, however, the difficult part is having each person contribute a full 50% . If one person contributes 30% and the other 35%, then that only equals to 65% rather than the full 100%. What I'm asking is for the 100%. Not the drama king series. A unique relationship were both partners are comfortable with the truth and aren't so up tight. I'm not comfortable being in a relationship not knowing if this could be the last time we talk. It's not about how long a relationship lasts, but the knowledge that you can pick up from it once you leave. The wise words I learned today was that "A woman can continue to live her life and strive, even with a man beside her. He can just be more of an inspiration and vice versa."