ReLaTioN--> ShiP

Here is an e-mail I sent myself on August 6, 2005 10:35:50 AM:


People having started pondering. Pondering why an attractive young lady as myself is single. And to that I have no answer. So in writing you this e-mail, I hope to find the real reason behind this mystery. Well, Lets first start off why I wouldnt want to be in a relationship. Well first of all, I mean what are the chances of it surviving?!?! I'm young and I might be able to see people, however I'm not ready to get into anything really serious. I mean whats the point!?!? Is it so I can waste the rest of my life and spend it or perhaps give it to someone I probably will not be talking to in 3 years?!?!So the bottom line or perhaps main reason why I'm not interested in dating is because "I do not want to waste my time on someone, and I want nothing serious at this age". So there! we found my reason! woo hoo. However, this still does not make me completely happy. There are reasons why I would like a boyfriend. The reasons include being so freakin lonely, and just watching other couples so fucken happy, gosh it really gets to me. And plus you know the obvious reason why. yuppp. Well, I guess casual flings are the way to go!! Thanks for helping me out, I appreciate it.