It's my LiFe, Don'T You 4GeT

Breath in, Breath out.

Today was very strange. I've given up with my scale, and until I return it and get another one I promised I would cut down major! So now I'm down to water and 3 fruits a day. People have been commentingg on my weight loss. It feels good, but its not good enough. Today included much smoking and studying. Everything is sooooooooo clear when I'm high! I don't care if anyone disapproves. In the end, it's my life, my destiny, my right. I'm getting Hana to help me pack on Saturday. I can't believe my room must be left behind so shortly. I have learnt a lot of new things from this place. I walked into this room with inspirations of being all I can be. I will leave knowing how to achieve more. I walked in as a teenager, I will walk out as a young woman. I went through my drug abuses, and sex phases in this room. In this room. I am learnt to be strong and answer or reflect of all doubts. Before I went to sleep, I prayed to have a very clear dream that may reflect on the current positioning of my life. I drifted away, I recalled 2 symbols in my dreams. I went through a car wash; Car Wash -- >To dream that you are going through a car wash, foretells that any troubles you are currently having will soon pass. The other symbol that was completely weird what that I was personalizing my room, from the outside of the house! So on the outside brick I was painting my room!Painting the brick and decorating! Here is the definition of that ;Painting as in decorating suggests we are making recognizable changes in the way we think and feel.

So what I got from my dream is that the troubles I'm currently facing will pass and I am changing my recognizable physical image(since I dreamt of decorating the outside, it refers to physical change) --> That does relate to my diet!!! I hope others can see the connections between my dreams and my present situations.