Alright, here I am to express my inner feelings to my dear blog, as my bestest friend Hana suggests this is my self therapy. Surely writing allows me to express myself and release any negative energy onto this site. I'm going to refer to him as "him" simply to protect his privacy. Him, is very interesting. I haven't met Him yet, although we attend the same university and he happens to be in one of my classes this semester. Our paths haven't intertwined until today. Today will be the day I see Him in person. He seems adorable. However, I can not be quick with perceptions. I've learned that the cover of the book (the way one presents themselves) is quite different from the real aspects, "the book itself" (how one truly is) It usually takes me 2-4 weeks to deliver and really tell where things are heading. That is why I don't give people chances, and when I do, I analyze, I ponder, I replay every precise detail imaginable. The way words were verbalized, eye contact, hand gestures and the words themselves. I don't usually enjoy doing much talking, because being the quite one, enforces the other person to do most of the talking and the more they speak, the more bullshit they are likely of feeding me. Men are strange for some reason. Usually in most cases, they flaunt their best attributes, they try to over rule every situation possible and have things in control. Well, that explains why I'm with such idiots. I love when men put an act on for me. It's as if I'm watching a live movie unfolding. What can I say? I prefer live plays over movies? That's why I hate watching movies. LOL. Why watch a movie, when there is live entertainment with benefits?? Anyhow, I'm getting carried away with my thoughts and philosophies. Him ?? hmmm,,,I don't know what to think, what to say, I have tried to prevent myself from making any analogies prior to really getting to know Him. Perhaps what intrigues me in him is the fact that he is different. Even live plays must come to an end. Reality must be seen, and today I will see him.
